she packs her things and she goes

This is practically a public display.

Self inflicted wounds... the only profound ones we all suffer from. There's a song by matchbox20 I came across on one of their very first albums. The album is called 'yourself or someone like you'. The song is called 'hang'. At this very moment in time I can relate to this line "she's been here too few years to feel this old..." I'm disgusted with our human nature. The one that defiles and corrupts for selfish greed. The one that at all costs, continues to slap God in the face and is followed by an insincere apology with the means of repeating to offend Him sometime within the near future. I long to be in that place where my heart doesn't ache to know that I am one of those....that I am one of those deceivers. One of those that continue to betray Him with a kiss. How can we be so foolish into thinking that apart from God we can succeed? That apart from Him we can overcome? That apart from Him we can go on our own? It's a recursive cycle that puts us right where we started. A stage we know all too well. Yet, we are willing to give up and give in.

I'm feeling the weight of this grave of a body. I've often entertained the thought of leaving it all behind and going away.

Then I arrived at this conclusion:

"and we always say, it would be good to go away, someday. but if there's nothing there to make things change, if it's the same for you, i'll just hang."

This is the beginning of a new beautiful release. Just trying to make it right.